
I was a child of the 1960s and a teenager of the 1970s,
formed during a very global, progressive, and open-minded phase of U.S.
history. I was a Protestant in a very mainstream sort of way, fascinated by all
the spiritual currents of my era. I passed my Methodist catechism class while
listening to George Harrison chant Hare Krishna. I read books on Edgar Cayce
and reincarnation, the Beatles and Transcendental Meditation, Buddhism and
Hinduism. As a product of the Age of Aquarius, I fully expected all these
religious currents to somehow point toward a single, ultimate truth.
Even though Christianity dominated my upbringing, I was
never prone to feeling that any one religion was right while all others were
wrong. I had no inkling of the implications then, but my pan-religiosity,
already contained the seeds of unbelief. My process from believer to unbeliever
took decades, in many small steps. Never once did I experience a sudden stroke
of revelation.
Collapsing a long process down into a few paragraphs, the
first important step was realizing that all religions must be at least partly
wrong. No matter how one tries to analyze doctrine, religions disagree with one
another on important details, like the nature of the Self or Soul, what one
must do in order to achieve liberation or salvation, and what one is to be
liberated or saved from. If religions hold mutually exclusive opinions, they
cannot all be right. The possibilities, then, are that there is one right
religion, with all others being wrong, or that they are all wrong to at least
some degree.
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Trying to choose one religion out of many is equally
impossible. There simply are no external criteria by which to evaluate them.
All major religions have millions of followers, have withstood the tests of
millennia, provide guidance and comfort in various ways, include some kind of
moral framework, have their scriptures and doctrines, and make a variety of
claims that are untestable. Blindly accepting the programming of one’s
upbringing is easy, but requiring a reason to make a choice between religions
makes that choice impossible.
Seeking unity in a pile of error-prone religions is
treacherous territory for a believer. The main problem is that of divine
revelation, or its lack. Basic to much of the religious enterprise is the
assertion that some people have been given superhuman knowledge at first hand,
that they've communicated personally with some god, or at least an angel. The
hope that makes much of religion tick is that it is backed by a divine
authority that has revealed itself, a choice made by the divine to impart
wisdom to mortals. Imperfect and mutually exclusive religions are simply
incompatible with divine revelation. We can blame flawed humans for not quite
getting the message right, but that makes the process of revelation itself a
great deal less than divine. Divine revelation is falsified by the fact that
Hinduism begat Buddhism, and that Buddhism contains such disparate sects as the
Tibetan and Pure Land. Divine revelation is falsified by the fact that Judaism
begat both Christianity and Islam, one with a divine Jesus and one with a human
Jesus. Divine revelation is falsified by the endless fractiousness of Christian
denominations. The most that is possible is divine inspiration, but certainly
not divine revelation.
The idea of divine inspiration is comforting for a pan-religious
believer. It implies that some spiritually adept individuals may sometimes gain
a glimpse of the divine or the beyond. They may then labor to communicate this
to others, but the truth they’ve perceived is ineffable. Human minds and human
language are not fully able to grasp or communicate that truth. All spiritual
teachings, then, and all the scripture and doctrines derived from them, must be
imperfect approximations at best. This view is hardly different from what I had
started out with as a teenager. It is just a little more honest about the
sources of religion.
In retrospect, it seems to me that I was an atheist at this
point. I did not understand it then, but I would now assert that once one
denies the possibility of divine revelation, religion becomes a sham.
The problems is what divine inspiration, without divine
revelation, implies. It says that flawed human beings, either individually or
in groups, wrote the holy books, developed the rituals and symbols, and
outlined the moral or ethical rules. It acknowledges that ancient scriptures
came out of different cultures than our own, and that human beings must
therefore use human reason in determining how to apply those writings to modern
circumstances. It places a burden on each living person, rather than on our
ancestors, to make choices about religion. It says that tradition is fine, but
is never an excuse to stop thinking.
It took me some years to fully grasp these implications. The
one dramatic realization, if there was one, was that these implications look
exactly the same whether there is a divine beyond or is none. It is impossible
to distinguish between religions that are failed attempts to point toward some
ultimate but indescribable truth and religions that are nothing more than the
all too earthly expression of human psychological tendencies.
This leaves me in my present condition as an agnostic. I use
that term as a technical matter, because I don’t feel I can directly falsify
the possibility of God, at least if God is defined in a way that is
sufficiently vague and uninvolved in earthly affairs. Most believers would
quickly label me an atheist, and I’m comfortable with that label as well. I
conduct my life as if all gods and religions are human artifacts, a stance that
falls well within the definition of atheism. I am also a Secular Humanist, not
out of complex philosophical reasoning, but out of lack of alternative. What
else has there ever been? No god has ever sat in parliament, and no angel has
ever whispered into the ears of legislators. We may project our ideals in the
form of religion, we may claim religion justifies or demands certain actions,
but the simple fact is that all such decisions have always been made by human
beings and always will be. Let’s just be honest about that.
~Jim Dugan